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And it goes like this
This is the true story
Or it could be fiction, the kind of fiction that could only be true.
A lot has been said about me, and you can bet your ass people will always start off with the bad stuff.You’re going to hear about that later. But for now I’m on the right side of being wrong. I’m just going to tell it the best way I know how. It so happens I’m talking about bad timing. either I’m always late or later.
If I didn’t answer I’m not coming.
In this case I should’ve been there two weeks earlier. Okay let’s get to the point it’s about a man, boundaries, lust ( that too) and it’s aftermath .
Or maybe I was just so fucked up at that time everything would have been a risk. I was broken , I was damaged and self esteem was a distant memory.
I’m also one of those kick ass chicks that your mother warned you about.
I’m a drug addict, I ran with the big boys , either on the back of a Harley yep that’s me one of the old ladies. And make no mistake it had its perks.
But this isn’t about my addiction and my ongoing struggles with recovery.
It took some time, I’ve seen the inside of rehab clinics in many different states and countries. I’m happy to say that I’m a recovering drug addict when I am not relapsing . There’s a lot of recovery when relapse is always just around the corner. And you guessed it I’m always on the corner of relapse. However, lately I wanted to understand why I hurt so bad, I’m damaged and damned pissed off about it.I became very serious and wanting to know what caused all this damaged. You guessed it dysfunctional right from the start. This story is about a lust, passion , desire. and sex.
I can say without a doubt the flying monkey’s have been unleashed .
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The real trouble with reality is that there’s no background music.
We all have those crazy, crappy moments. We’ve all been hurt, we’ve all tried to pick ourselves up from whatever dust we are in. And though we’ve experienced pain, in the end, we know it is for the better.
I’m not happy with all the crap I have had to endure, but I am beginning to acknowledge that I am stronger for it. I’ve grown, changed, learned, fought, won, and loss. I’ve been hurt, but never broken, beaten but never defeated and I know I will never give up. I’ve gained the strength to carry my heart on my sleeve and learned how to put it’s pieces back together. The past doesn’t hold me any longer I can now face any future with a level of determination I did not possess when I was younger.
I want people to see that there is a way out, in their own time, and in their own way. That the road rarely ends at one dark point. What keeps us going is hope.
To sum up, I suppose, I’ve learned that situations can make life seem very black and not worth living, but getting through those dark valleys proves that life will continue, for better or worse. The struggles and obstacles that seemed insurmountable and unacceptable before have been gotten through and are now behind me.
I do hate my dark past, but the funny thing of it is… I am also grateful for it too. I couldn’t have been as strong, as I am now, without it.
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