Inspired during the struggle.
Last night was a tough one. Being bored, I flirted with the idea of drinking a bit. I swear I couldn’t shake the feeling. This went on for hours . Thankfully, I had nothing in the house but that didn’t stop my mind from the craving that I was feeling . I pulled up the online delivery service maybe 10 times . I would order some little thing like a side of fries and bottle of vodka. Always closing the order and giving myself another hour. While I was doing this, I was also searching YouTube for something or other and came across this video. As I sat listening , I cried. I really cried, you know the “ugly face cry”.
All I could think of is , when is this battle going to end.
I took a deep breath and said out loud, It’s Not !
With that I logged off and went to sleep.
Thankfully, I survived .
Waking up to a brand new day , I take a minute and bow my head to give Thanks .