OMG, I am about to go crazy bipolar on someone. I can laugh a bit ( which isn’t easy,because I swear it taking all my strength not to get ghetto right now.) My common sense told me not to so trusting, again I didn’t listen , let’s be honest I was under the influence of one thing or another before leaving . I am old enough to know that people sometimes let you down . But does it have to happen all at once. For those of you who don’t know ,I left for a few months get myself together ( do I have to spell it out damnit . Sober ( let’s see how much longer that will work , at this rate). For fuck sakes I lived across the hall from her for the past 3 years . My great wonderful friend who should be taking care of my house and mail.. I have been around the block and back enough to know that if I have any doubts , STOP, and listen to inner voice. I am not 20 anymore but my anger is in full force .Yeah I know that behavior got me here !